FEELING SAD AND LONELY

I WENT TO GET MY BOOTS OUT OF THE CLOSET AND FLASHED BACK TO BEING A TODDLER LOCKED IN THE CLOSET BY A. 

THE SENSE OF PEACE AND SAFETY FROM BEING IN THE COOL DARK CLOSET. 

THEN I FELT SAD THAT SO MUCH OF MY LIFE IS ANXIETY FROM MY PAST. 

I WAS THINKING ABOUT THE MESS AND DEPRESSION.  I'M DEPRESSED STILL BECAUSE I'M STILL REHABBING MY BACK. 

WHAT IF MY BACK NEVER GETS ANY BETTER???

DO I CHOOSE TO STAY DEPRESSED???

I HAVE A CHOICE.