Friday, June 26, 2020

oops

i'm alphabetizing, organizing my blogs.

senior lunch 9th in line i get good online reception.  there's a father and 10-11 yr old autistic son walking around park.  i think i figured out why the affect.  it's prey behavior being ready for fight-flight.


Thursday, June 25, 2020

obsessive/compulsive

HELPED ME TO FINISH PROJECTS BUT PLAYED INTO THE FAMILY SLAVE MENTALITY.  I WAS THE ONLY ONE TO SEE THINGS THROUGH.  SO MOM AND DAD RELIED ON ME TO TAKE CARE OF THEM WHEN THEY RAISED MY SISTERS TO GO OFF AND BE IRRESPONSIBLE SELFISH.  THE WORST KIND OF FISH.  MY SENSE OF HUMOR IS STILL STRONG.

I'M LEARNING TO ACCOMPLISH GOALS IN STAGES AND TO ENJOY THE PROCESS.  I'VE ALWAYS FOCUSED ON COMPLETION.  LEAVES ME EMPTY.  ALWAYS LOOKING FOR NEW GOALS.  I'M LEARNING TO ADMIRE MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS.

IT'S BEEN 6 MONTHS NON SMOKING.  MY LUNGS ARE CLEARING, COUGHING AND MY BLOODSTREAM IS FULL OF TOXINS LEAVING MY TISSUES.  I'M FEELING CRANKY, THIRSTY AND TIRED.

OH, JOY.