i care less about doing. i'm enjoying just being. i'm tired of conforming to 'normal' not nice behavior. i was constantly punished for being christian by my family. they treated me like a slave. mom said it was to toughen me up but i'm tough enough. i survived the wolf pack. i just couldn't believe what she didn't believe. i could see in her eyes. when people lie it's self damage. they manufacture chemicals that generate disease. high blood pressure, diabetes, heart dis-ease. the same thing.
my pre diabetes trying to resolve the lies i try so hard to believe. maybe accept better word.
