FIRST BEST

FEELING ANXIETY.  I'M NOT SURE IF IT'S ASPERGERS OR NORMAL ANXIETY FROM NEW IDEAS AND BEHAVIORS.

I REALIZED I'VE ALWAYS AIMED FOR SECOND BEST, SECOND PRIZE.  NOT AS PRESTIGIOUS. 

WHAT THE WORLD CONSIDERS #1 ISN'T ALWAYS WHAT I CONSIDER BEST FOR ME.  WHEN OFFERED THE MACY'S JOB, WHEN I WON THE CADILLAC ESCALADE, I DIDN'T WANT THEM.  NOT MY FIRST CHOICE.

I ACTUALLY CHOSE TO BLOG THIS A M

FOR THE FIRST TIME I FEEL LIKE BLOGGING. THIS DOESN'T FEEL LIKE A JOB I'M FORCED TO DO, I WANT TO BLOG.

I GOOGLED ASPERGERSNEXT AND I'M LINKED TO MY OTHER BLOGS.



I FOUND A BRAND NEW UNOPENED SET OF CHANGE YOUR THINKING, CHANGE YOUR LIFE LAST WEEK HERE AT SENIORS.  TWO DVDS, BOX OF 6 CDS, AND A JOURNAL.  TURNED OUT TO BE JUNK.

I'M STILL FEELING ANXIOUS.  I USED THE HYPNOSIS CD FOR THE FIRST TIME LAST NIGHT TO SLEEP. 

I CALLED FIRST UNITED CU, RE; MY IRA TO CONSOLIDATE ACCOUNTS AND MAKE MY LIFE SIMPLER.  I HAVE UNTIL TUESDAY THE 29TH AND THEY ARE OPEN SATURDAYS 9-1.

I'LL KEEP ME POSTED.

"NORMAL" ANIMAL BEHAVIOR

ALL MY ASPERGER SYMPTOMS ENGENDERED NEGATIVE REACTIONS FROM MY FAMILY BECAUSE THEY REACTED AS ANIMALS NOT HUMANS.

THEY MADE ME SMARTER, HAVING TO SURVIVE.

I'M LEARNING MORE AND MORE OF MY QUIRKY BEHAVIOR IS NORMAL FOR ASPERGERS.

 HOW DO I USE IT NOW?

I FOUND A REFERENCE TO AUTISTIC ADVOCACY.ORG IN SUNDAY'S PAPER. NO HELP.