Tuesday, May 21, 2013


Self-medicating all my life.         Nicotine from dad, and anger from mom.                                             

Since all of us are chemical factories creating and ingesting chemicals to function, finding a way to synthesize a new internal drug is possible by manipulating emotions.                          

EMOTIONS are choices we make.  By choosing different emotions we can control our bodies.                                          

Drug addicts are attempting in an intuitive way to control their emotional bodies and the world around them.  Overeaters use food.  Whenever anyone has a crisis, get them a glass of H2O to change their internal chemistry.                                 

We have a NEW FRONTIER to explore and experiment like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.                          

Thursday, May 2, 2013

ADHD-scanning the environment,survival reflex**The search for My Passion**-Shawn Achor, Happiness Advantage

Attention deficit is a basic survival skill.  Prey animals constantly scan their surroundings for predators.  Terrorists.  In human beans ( on porpoise ), the lack of stimuli (perceived threat) sets up a resonance that causes a level of discomfort in nonaspergers individuals that seek chemical balance, resolution.

In other words, homo sapiens are so used to being in a state of stress and anxiety genetically and historically, behaviorally even, that if circumstances aren't stressful enough, we will create our own disaster.  Horror and disaster movies supply the adrenaline and cortisol fix since the brain/body reacts to what it witnesses. 

When I worked at Goodwill, one client who'd been repeatedly beaten and abused as a child, as an adult would throw himself down a flight of stairs or pick a fight he couldn't win if his life became too peaceful and calm.  The lack of discomfort (vacuum)was so painful to Robert that he needed to create physical pain to offset the lack of discomfort (fill the void with feeling), to feel alive.  Like cutting.

Abusers generally have been abused or even worse, witnessed severe abuse.  Children witnessing violence are powerless to stop the abuse and perhaps become abusers as self protection.

Aspergers feelings are not wired in a traditional way.  The genetic mutation allows aspies to decide how to respond if they've been raised with compassionIn my case, I learned to shut down all feeling to survive in my family.  So I was labeled stupid, unfeeling, cold, crazy, etc.

Happiness Solution.  I just spent 1/2 hr looking for the PBS guy with the research.  Couldn't find it.  But I shall.....Scott A.....?  5/3/13 9:50AM-took me less than a day-23 hrs to remember Shawn Achor, Happiness Advantage.

So New Behaviors need to be installed to old feelings.  I'm sure terrorists feel their lives threatened by change.  They lash out with no understanding of how their emotions/feelings are running their lives.

"Find your passion and the money will follow" is so basic.  A passion cannot be a job.  Passion is Life.  A Passion is a calling.  I don't know again; if that's why passionflower is so important to my chemical balance.

6*13*13  Passion-The Elements, Sir Dr Ken Robinson,  What was the cartoon about the Robinsons?