Saturday, December 15, 2018

I NOTICE

ASPERGER'S IS DETAILS.  I SEE PATTERNS.  I THINK IT CAN BE TAUGHT.

THE ANSWER TO SUCCESS IN LIFE IS BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION.

I'M USING AFFIRMATIONS AND IT'S WORKING.  I'M TAKING MY TIME, GOING SLOWER AND AVOIDING MISTAKES.


Saturday, November 24, 2018

BEAUTY

I'VE NOT SEEN THE LACK OF RESPECT.  I'VE ONLY SEEN THE BEST IN FREDRICK GOULD AND MARGEE WHEELER. 

I'VE LIVED THE IMPERSONAL LIFE.  MY AUTISM REMOVED THE INEQUITY.  BOTH OF THEM OMITTED ME FROM THEIR WEDDINGS.  USED ME TO REALIZE THEIR DREAMS.  HER TRUE LOVE, MARRIAGE AND CAREER, HIS HEALING CIRCLE AND MARRIAGE. 

I LIKE ATTENDING WEDDINGS.


Wednesday, September 26, 2018

WE LEARN TO DEAL

WE LEARN BEHAVIORS TO OFFSET OUR SYMPTOMS.  WE NEVER OUT GROW IT.  DOCTORS, SCIENTISTS KNOW NOTHING ABOUT IT.  UNLESS THEY LIVE IT THEY'LL NEVER KNOW. 

I'M LEARNING, TEACHING MYSELF NEW BEHAVIORS.  AND IT'S SCARY.  I WANT A BETTER LIFE.  AND I'M WILLING TO LEARN A BETTER LIFE.


Sunday, September 9, 2018

OMG

I DIDN'T TAKE TIME TO LISTEN TO LOUISE HAY.  I'M BALANCING DAD'S DEATH WITH MR ROGER'S NEIGHBORHOOD DOCUMENTARY.  BAD DAD/GOOD DAD.

I CAME TO CUPERTINO LIBRARY AFTER EXERCISE, SAFEWAY BAKERY, FOUND TWO QUARTERS IN PAY PHONE, AND NOW I'M LISTENING TO LOUISE HAY AND POSTING THIS.

WOOHOO!!


Saturday, August 25, 2018

MATURATION/VIOLENCE

WE CONTINUE BEING AUTISTIC.  WE LEARN TO OVERLAY OUR GENETIC DISPOSITION WITH SOCIALLY PREFERRED BEHAVIORS BUT THE GENETIC TENDENCIES ARE STILL THERE IN TIMES OF STRESS AND ONLY BY SELF DISCIPLINE CAN THOSE TENDENCIES BE OVER RIDDEN.  AND NEVER REMOVED.  THEY'RE GENETIC.

WHEN STRESSED WE INTROVERT.  WE HAVEN'T THE ABILITY FOR VIOLENCE BECAUSE IT DOESN'T EXIST IN OUR GENETIC CODING.  WE HAVE SELF PROTECTION, SELF DEFENSE BECAUSE IT'S CORE PROGRAMMING.  VIOLENCE IS A PERVERTED FORM OF SELF DEFENSE.  PROCREATION IMPERATIVE PERVERTED BECOMES RAPE.

ONE OF THE FIRST ACTS OF TOTALITARIAN GOVERNMENTS IS TO SUBVERT SEX TO CHANNEL THAT VIGOR INTO VIOLENCE AGAINST A SCAPEGOAT.  DIVIDE AND CONQUER NOT ONLY GROUPS BUT INDIVIDUALS BY FORCING THEM TO BETRAY THEMSELVES, GIVING UP THEIR IDEALS.




Monday, July 2, 2018

BEHAVIORS

I'VE LEARNED TO ADAPT AND ADJUST.  I'M MORE PATIENT AND UNDERSTANDING WITH MYSELF.  I'M RESTING MORE AND EXERCISING MORE.  I'M TAKING BETTER CARE OF MYSELF.  I'M READING BOOKS I LOVE.  MY FAVORITE THING TO DO.


Saturday, May 12, 2018

I THINK

AUTISM IS ALL ABOUT FEELING.  LIFE IS ALL ABOUT FEELING.  PEOPLE BELIEVE THEY THINK THEIR LIVES BUT WE BASE DECISIONS ON FEELINGS.

I THOUGHT I WAS DOING BETTER BUT I LOST MY PHONES.  MY ATTENTION DEFICIT/DISTRACT ABILITY.   MOM'S DEATHIVERSARY GOT IN THE WAY.  AND I STARTED PHYSICAL THERAPY AND LOOKING FOR A CAR THIS WEEK.  I'VE BEEN DOING THE STEPS.  IT'S VERY HARD.

AT LEAST I DON'T HAVE TO GO TO 24 HR GRAND OPENING IN MILPITAS. MY COMPULSIONS ARE BETTER.