I'M STILL LEARNING

I WAS SO TRAUMATIZED BY THE FAMILY NOT TO EXPERIENCE FEELINGS, I'M STILL LEARNING HOW TO BEFRIEND MY FEELINGS.

THEY TAUGHT ME TO HONOR THEIR FEELINGS WHILE REJECTING MINE.  I WASN'T ALLOWED TO FEEL.  THEY WERE JEALOUS GODS.  THE THREATS AND PUNISHMENTS WERE EXTREMELY EFFECTIVE.  I'M STILL REMODELING MY GUT LEVEL REACTIONS.

I BELIEVE MY PARENTS BOTH HAD ASPY TENDENCIES WHICH WERE AMPLIFIED IN ME.  THEY HATED ME FOR REFLECTING BACK AT THEM WHAT THEY HATED ABOUT THEMSELVES.  AND SO THEY DIED UNFORTUNATELY, UNCOMFORTABLY.

TOO BAD THEY LIVED IN THE PAST.  THE FUTURE IS SO MUCH BRIGHTER.

MISOGYNY IS BEING CONFRONTED HEAD ON RIGHT NOW.  SO MANY SELF-HATING WOMEN IN THE WORLD.  I WONDER IF FEMALE DISEASES WILL DWINDLE?

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I THINK I HAVE ASPERGERS DUE TO BOTH PARENTS.  BOTH OF THEM WERE A LITTLE WEIRD AND THAT WOULD EXPLAIN MY OFF THE CHARTS SCORE.

COME ON 36/18.

OUTGROWN

I THINK THE BEHAVIORS BECOME MODIFIED WITH PRACTICE.  I'M NO LONGER OBS/COMPULSIVE.  IT FEELS WEIRD.  THAT NERVOUS EDGE IS GONE.  I DON'T WORRY ABOUT PAYING BILLS, WHAT TIME TO AWAKE, WHAT I'M DOING.

WHO AM I?

WHO DO I WANT TO BE?

UGH BAD DOCTOR

I TRIED WATCHING IT.  TOO WEIRD. 

ALZHEIMERS

WHEN LIFE IS TOO PAINFUL AND CAN'T BE REFRAMED OR FORGOTTEN. 

I'VE COME TO THANK MY CRUEL AND USUAL FAMILY FOR MAKING MY CHILDHOOD ROTTEN.  AFTER THEM THE KINDNESS IN LIFE IS SWEET AND UNEXPECTED.  DOUBLY GOOD.

SORRY

LAST SUNDAY WAS ST. J SENIOR LUNCH AND I JUST DIDN'T HAVE THE ENERGY.  I DIDN'T REALIZE THE FIRES WERE BURNING SATURDAY NITE.  I AWOKE COUGHING.

I DO LOVE OBSERVING THE ANTICS OF PEOPLE.  SENIORS ARE CONSISTENTLY GOOFY. 

I'VE BEEN WATCHING BIOLOGICAL ARCHEOLOGY.  GOOD TO NAP TO. 

OUTGROWN@66

I FINALLY HAVE OUTGROWN MY ANXIETY AND I IMAGINE THIS CONDITION IS WHAT "NORMAL" PEOPLE EXPERIENCE.

IT'S LIKE BEING WRAPPED IN COTTON.  THERE IS A SPICINESS MISSING WHICH I THINK IS WHY SO MANY PEOPLE TAKE UNNECESSARY RISKS. 

PEOPLE LITERALLY KILL THEMSELVES OUT OF BOREDOM.