I'M STILL LEARNING

I WAS SO TRAUMATIZED BY THE FAMILY NOT TO EXPERIENCE FEELINGS, I'M STILL LEARNING HOW TO BEFRIEND MY FEELINGS.

THEY TAUGHT ME TO HONOR THEIR FEELINGS WHILE REJECTING MINE.  I WASN'T ALLOWED TO FEEL.  THEY WERE JEALOUS GODS.  THE THREATS AND PUNISHMENTS WERE EXTREMELY EFFECTIVE.  I'M STILL REMODELING MY GUT LEVEL REACTIONS.

I BELIEVE MY PARENTS BOTH HAD ASPY TENDENCIES WHICH WERE AMPLIFIED IN ME.  THEY HATED ME FOR REFLECTING BACK AT THEM WHAT THEY HATED ABOUT THEMSELVES.  AND SO THEY DIED UNFORTUNATELY, UNCOMFORTABLY.

TOO BAD THEY LIVED IN THE PAST.  THE FUTURE IS SO MUCH BRIGHTER.

MISOGYNY IS BEING CONFRONTED HEAD ON RIGHT NOW.  SO MANY SELF-HATING WOMEN IN THE WORLD.  I WONDER IF FEMALE DISEASES WILL DWINDLE?