sweet and savory treats. I ate so much sugar I had a hangover and felt tired and sad. seniors love sweets.
Aspergers is the next major evolutionary step in the advancment of the human race. If the lizard/mammal brain is allowed to run unchecked, according to Darwin's survival of the meanest, greediest; then mankind is doomed to repeat history and civilization will once again collapse under its own animal nature.
Friday, November 1, 2024
Thursday, October 31, 2024
9/3 started this post Aspergers an unique perspective
I weathered another dad's death day. the sisters have been quiet.
and today Halloween. more sweets and love than ever before. and home 2:45 for people puzzler game show Leah Remini.
Saturday, August 31, 2024
Thomas Szasz
EMERITUS, Syracuse, New York. revolutionized thinking.
Barry Kauffman may have used Dr Szasz' expertise to connect Barry's son Raun to this world. but wait. there have been other documentary evidence that autism is a shift in developmental stages. the timing is different. I had to wait until a senior to feel fully connected to my emotions and learned how to manage my energy.
and i'm still learning. maybe slowing down is the only way I would notice. so every little setback is a sign post. Edgar Cayce called it stumbling blocks into stepping stones.
I remember a lot. I define intelligence as re configuring information to invent something new.
I'VE BEEN SO SAD. RE READING 2023 WOW!!
Friday, August 30, 2024
10/12/24 comic con cosplay-my prerogative
I'm 73 and everyday is cosplay for me. I can do what I want in exchange for being old. I've been spelling prerogative wrong 'til now. hah!!
Wednesday, August 28, 2024
I'm feeling angry
Alien made mom feel guilty for spending "our inheritance" then took her to an audiologist for $5 k when mom and I had no problems. I told mom she earned it she should spend it. she reminded me Alien and mitt needed it. I told mom if we couldn't manage as adults that money wouldn't help. I always had to be the same logical adult while they ran rampant.
and being attention deficit on to something better. I thank God.
Tuesday, August 27, 2024
aspies perception of the universe
Shakespeare was accurate. the universe is within. how did he know? maybe aspies are a throwback to nomads. to quote swami beyondananda "I no mad at you, you no mad at me." we have a different perception of ownership. I am owned by my house, car, body, things. I'm responsible for caring for these things. they own me I don't own them unless I can walk away from them. like in Harold and Maude she throws the engagement ring into the bay so she'll always know where it is.
with unlimited funds i'd live in a retirement community and be chauffeured everywhere. own the minimum. be free.
I love that everyone gets to be their favorite rock star. my childhood everyone was required to look talk, be part of the herd. no room for individuals.
Saturday, August 24, 2024
Barry Kauffman Son-Rise
my first contact with autism through Clyde Burton. Option Institute. Raun Kauffman. Dr Thomas Szasz.
Thursday, August 22, 2024
content or content
Monday, August 19, 2024
diabetics torture themselves with food
food issues are the toughest. we have to eat to live. anorexia bulimia are control issues. someone used food to torture them and they go on to torture themselves. I know so many diabetics with food issues. skipping meals, eating late, sneaking treats, weight concerns, doing everything backwards.
new book i'm studying adult survivors of toxic family members. parents teach siblings to continue the abuse. page 21 explains so much; familiar lies are comforting and impart a false sense of safety. I'm putting the human puzzle together. only took 73 years.
Saturday, February 24, 2024
spent the day healing
i wasn't hungry yet i know i must eat. while i waited i ice picked 3 pieces of pollock to microwave crock pot with diced tomatoes a little almond milk. milk tenderizes fish. the acids. cooked onions, carrots, potatoes separately. can garbanzos and corn. nutritious and delicious. topped with tortilla chips heavenly.
i'm learning. i was so tired i forgot i could ride hopper. i rested all day, thought to look online. i could have gone seniors. i watched 'just shoot me' 3rd season. 1999 i needed all the laughs i could get. dad died after a torturous year. i was exhausted then too. this time i don't have to worry about mom killing herself.
Monday, February 19, 2024
i woke to more torture-life is pain for aspies
Sunday, February 18, 2024
i react differently
accident wednesday 2/14/24 easy to remember date. i'm still all a twitter. the adrenaline wore off i was depressed. it triggered family ptsd nightmares. i can understand thrill seekers. i was never so high. 'strawberry mansion' about dream audit.
i don't know i've never been in an accident before. not even as a passenger. it was raining i was waiting for traffic to clear to turn left on las palmas from benton west. traffic stopped due to red traffic signal i proceeded thru cleared intersection a white tesla grandmother 2 teen granddaughters hit right bumper 4-6 inches displacement to left. i don't know who was driving my door was jammed, my left knee hit steering column, my chest bruised from seat belt. they took my blood pressure with cuff checked oxygen with finger clip 149/58 i consider good after bruising not being able to exit 'til man pulled door open. people walking with umbrellas in rain called 911.
ordeal calling tow truck(carlos also), insurance, doctor, medicare transportation, carlos mechanic advised 3 k to fix and enumerated my options.
today first day i felt like out of house i walked .3 miles to nob hill with my folding shopping cart. i looked for hot spot in parking lot half hour. decided to check out store and noticed sign posted recycle i asked limit of 50 cans or bottles $2.50 at a time. and now wi-fi in store sunny had my hot spot ready. i called bartolo my gardener wasn't doing anything took me 1 pm.