FIRST BEST

FEELING ANXIETY.  I'M NOT SURE IF IT'S ASPERGERS OR NORMAL ANXIETY FROM NEW IDEAS AND BEHAVIORS.

I REALIZED I'VE ALWAYS AIMED FOR SECOND BEST, SECOND PRIZE.  NOT AS PRESTIGIOUS. 

WHAT THE WORLD CONSIDERS #1 ISN'T ALWAYS WHAT I CONSIDER BEST FOR ME.  WHEN OFFERED THE MACY'S JOB, WHEN I WON THE CADILLAC ESCALADE, I DIDN'T WANT THEM.  NOT MY FIRST CHOICE.