forgetting and remembering

Those two words. 

Forgetting.  To get the future one leaves the past in the past.  For getting leave the past behind.  In the rear view mirror it becomes reversed.  Mirror image.


Remembering.  Reconnecting.  Putting the pieces together, hopefully in a new, better configuration.


Fear is an active component of Aspergers Syndrome.  Anxiety, whatever you call it the emotion feels the same.  I wondered as a child whether other people saw blue the same way I did or did we just agree to call our separate shades blue.  Like colorblind people see shades of gray and have to believe there is differentiation between the shades of gray.


So much of living is based on Faith.


I believe Aspergers feel more acutely like elephants feel emotions clearer, cleaner.  The societal need to respect and acknowledge the balance between emotion and intellect. 


There is no success.  No enjoyment without it. 


Three people this morning were in a rush driving to wherever.  Not enjoying the journey and I used to be one of them.


Today the new me watched a squirrel traversing the building ledge.


Fear and Anxiety can be tamed.  With or without substances.


The fear of Being a new form feels like dying.  I don't have to die to be reborn.  Only my old life.

Another pc of the puzzle-Sunday free senior lunch -St Justin

Sitting not winning, I had a lot of time to meditate. 

The fascination with winning, playing, competing, general jerk-like behavior can be explained by the need to feel adrenaline and stress.

It also explains celebrity.  People not using their brains see winners as different from themselves. 

Only their thinking, their thoughts, makes them different.

They're different through their choices.

Greater Stress-Greater Need for Solutions=Aspergers

The greater the feelings of stress and anxiety caused by physical or emotional threats the greater the need for solutions.  The increase in stress hormones triggers the next generation to be more anxious and aware of searching  for solutions to relieve the stress.


The manner in which cattle have been slaughtered, increasing the stress hormones, the children ingesting higher levels of hormones and physically resulting in obesity and more stress over the unhealthy physiology.


It isn't the fast food that makes us fat.  It's using cheap hormone overloaded beef, chicken whatever.


Aspergers is the result of stress.  Programming a generation to search for stress Reduction.

ASPERGER'S CAUSE- STRESS IN UTERO

I've been meditating on whether the number of aspie's has increased or the number of diagnoses has increased.

A hundred years ago a person with aspy symptoms would be locked in the attic or basement and that would be that.

So I believe the number may be the same, the treatment has changed.  People are more stressed and less afraid.  They actually love their children.

More people are experiencing free floating anxiety and tolerate it without looking for someone to blame and punish.

It's reasonable to deduce that in primitive times, in primitive cultures, the more stressed the group the greater the need for new solutions to survival issues.  The greater need for biological adaptation.

Native-American tribes considered some insanity to be from God.  That the individual wasn't just touched in the head, but was touched by God and might lend some new insight to old problems.

Example:  Temple Grandin's redesigning slaughter houses and the population eating healthier beef, less wastage, increased profits.

aside:  reminds me of Alladin's enemy magician's new lamps for old.

Having read Black Elk Speaks, I still don't see the need for the decimation of the American people.  Was it a Jesus sacrifice thing and didn't he say it didn't need redoing...??

So I believe in times of additional stress the increased levels of cortisol and adrenaline effect the fetal development.

I've been in touch with floods of stress hormones and realize stress is normal.

And so the deTox goes on

I'm slooowly becoming more conscious as I face down my demons.  It's been over a month now on organic and I'm starting to feel more energized/evergized. 


My defeated attitude is slowly changing.  Monday went to get 2 pack deal and they only had one organic so I substituted menthol.  Then I realized I can exchange it later.  So I went back today, Thurs. and they still haven't restocked.  Hmmmm.......


I'm adjusting my life to feel perfect.  Call from county library, no one there.  Life at the Sr. Ctr. is smoothing out nicely.   


Do I want a job at the new Sprouts or Target??  Do I want a job?  I need a direction, a target to shoot for.


I have coupons for Milpitas vitamin world.  I can go and exchange the dress at savers or go next Sunday.   Divine Guidance.

Compassion-Empathy

I think aspies feel more directly not having the envy, competition, jealousy gene. 


We want everyone to be happy and content.  Content or content. 

Autists process info consciously

I know I don't take in or process info the same as a non-autist. 

They don't notice things.  Part of my attention deficit being attention overload. 

I notice bugs flying around.  When I drive, I plan my route like a chess move.  Just comes naturally.  I use intuition to read the energy around me. 

I only get in trouble when I'm overly tired or ignore the info.  When I revert to family behavior patterns.  Sometimes from depression.