no one is normal. we're all on a spectrum. oh, my mini stroke. my right temple is so sore.
Cathy called 6:30 pm to ask me to send her stickers to i d her walker. what!! i asked her if she had return address mail stickers to use and add her phone number. she was thrilled. i don't know. seemed obvious to me. we talked for 22 minutes. her sister gave her some of her 20 k inheritance to pay bills. she's out of the hospital.
i did my morning routine and called Inge we went to Panera. i treated us to lunch and dessert. we both had steak melted cheese sandwiches and savory souffle. half a sand was plenty we took the rest home. she hasn't been eating. loaded the last of recycle and tipped the guy $4 half of recycle. he's always rushed to help me the 3 times. so i broke even and had a great lunch. jetted over to panda for dinner and red envelope. coupons.
ate senior lunch for dinner and some panda for dessert. mmm, orange chicken. i cooked some brown rice.
asp fascination with predators. working at good will clients would follow me around. i had to remind them to continue their jobs. she is on the cusp of predator/prey. that's what is fascinating watching 'aliens'. she goes from one to the other. i could never understand my family hating me and the kids at school loving me. i have it too. some people come after me to use me others are afraid of me. mom said i was 1 of 2 people she was afraid of. shocked me after all the times she threatened to kill me.
that's the celebrity aura. we're fascinated watching due to our hunter genetics. always on the prowl. stars watched from a safe distance. explains stalkers too. trying to capture that predator safely. owning that guard dog ensuring safety.
aspergers autism is all about distance. we go within for peace from a jumbled incoherent world. we construct our own filters over time but we can't deny physical reality. i think that's why videos are crucial to constructing filters. they teach alternate realities possibilities. beyond a small existence.
i can do whatever i want in my blog. an unusual concept.
i decided limiting short trips. now i understand the longer travel benefits my car. and is helping to loosen me up from constraints.
funny ad on game page find my Asian soul mate=me. this is as relaxing as scratch path. i understand why and how neuro-typicals go brain dead. i like this.
not having filters has its advantages. i have more time to get used to things. the admiration for liars is the denial we needed before technology. Tesla is creating a car that changes colors. law enforcement should have something to say. squid octopus and chamelians do it. big whoop.
just because we can do it doesn't make it a good idea. the man who died on Everest leaving behind a young wife and baby is one example of many.
i have high hopes for 2022. emotionally it's been tough. i can finally relax. takes practice. new behaviors uses so much energy. breaking down the old tracks and building new ones.
the body doesn't need to know to know. vibrating with the environment i can follow what people name instinct. without it we face extinction. instinct or extinct.
i've lived most of my life terrorized by family and facsimiles. this feeling is weird. the absence of life threats. only took 71 years to create a place of peace. i sincerely (without wax) hope my autistic brethren have an easier time. we are the future of mankind or face species extinction.
there must be an unconscious knowing. the 'species' series. horror movies demonstrate inner fears. people watch hoping to exorcise the fear while actually exercising the fear further reinforcing the chemical tracks.
