Saturday, August 5, 2017
Thursday, August 3, 2017
ECLIPSE?22nd
I'M ALL ANXIOUS. STARTED LAST NIGHT. I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S THE WEATHER, IT'S OVERCAST 30% RAIN. AND LAST NIGHT I GOT ALL DEPRESSED OVER THE SKYLIGHT LEAKING. I WAS THINKING OF PAYING T $1K TO HANDLE IT FOR ME.
I'M FEELING ALL INCAPABLE, INCOMPETENT JUST LIKE CHILDHOOD.
THEY TORTURED ME INTO GIVING UP MY CHILDHOOD. THEY CAUSED MY DISCONNECTING FROM MYSELF TO SURVIVE.
ALL I DID WAS DISPLAY TYPICAL ASPERGERS BEHAVIORS.
THEY COULDN'T LET ME BE MY WEIRD, MAGICAL SELF. THEY CALLED IT LUCK AND TORTURED ME FOR IT.
I'M FEELING ALL INCAPABLE, INCOMPETENT JUST LIKE CHILDHOOD.
THEY TORTURED ME INTO GIVING UP MY CHILDHOOD. THEY CAUSED MY DISCONNECTING FROM MYSELF TO SURVIVE.
ALL I DID WAS DISPLAY TYPICAL ASPERGERS BEHAVIORS.
THEY COULDN'T LET ME BE MY WEIRD, MAGICAL SELF. THEY CALLED IT LUCK AND TORTURED ME FOR IT.
Tuesday, August 1, 2017
BLINDNESS
IS SELECTIVE AND LEARNED.
WE'RE TRAINED TO FIT INTO OUR FAMILIES. WE LEARN TO ADAPT AND ADJUST JUST TO STAY ALIVE. EVERY CHILD WANTS; NEEDS LOVE TO DEVELOP. AND WE LEARN TO MANIPULATE OURSELVES. PUSHING OUR OWN BUTTONS. TRYING TO FIT INTO THE FAMILIES WE'RE GIVEN.
WE'RE TRAINED TO FIT INTO OUR FAMILIES. WE LEARN TO ADAPT AND ADJUST JUST TO STAY ALIVE. EVERY CHILD WANTS; NEEDS LOVE TO DEVELOP. AND WE LEARN TO MANIPULATE OURSELVES. PUSHING OUR OWN BUTTONS. TRYING TO FIT INTO THE FAMILIES WE'RE GIVEN.
Monday, July 31, 2017
feeling anxious-MONDAY MONDAY
I THINK I'M PROBABLY OVER TIRED AND COMING DOWN FROM WEEKEND.
I'M NOT USED TO DOING SO MUCH AND NOT FALLING INTO PUNISHMENT PATTERN.
RETRAINING THE BRAIN IS SCARY.
I'M NOT QUITE READY YET TO DEAL WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S PROBLEMS.
I'M NOT USED TO DOING SO MUCH AND NOT FALLING INTO PUNISHMENT PATTERN.
RETRAINING THE BRAIN IS SCARY.
I'M NOT QUITE READY YET TO DEAL WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S PROBLEMS.
Saturday, July 29, 2017
SATURDAY SALEING
I WENT AND FILLED THE CAR AT COSTCO 7:30.
MY FAVORITE THING TO DO IS LOOKING AT A VARIETY OF STUFF. I GOT MY FILL AT THE GARAGE, RUMMAGE, ESTATE SALE.
PS. I CALLED THE ESTATE SUNDAY, THEY WERE DONE. I LOVED THESE WEIRD CANDLE WAX CATCHERS IN GLASS WITH CHANDELIER HANGINGS. THEY WERE ASKING $200 FOR THE CANDLE STICKS. I SHOULD HAVE COUNTERED BUT I WAS IN SHOCK. NEXT TIME.
MY FAVORITE THING TO DO IS LOOKING AT A VARIETY OF STUFF. I GOT MY FILL AT THE GARAGE, RUMMAGE, ESTATE SALE.
PS. I CALLED THE ESTATE SUNDAY, THEY WERE DONE. I LOVED THESE WEIRD CANDLE WAX CATCHERS IN GLASS WITH CHANDELIER HANGINGS. THEY WERE ASKING $200 FOR THE CANDLE STICKS. I SHOULD HAVE COUNTERED BUT I WAS IN SHOCK. NEXT TIME.
Friday, July 28, 2017
TWEEKING
I'M MAKING SMALL ADJUSTMENTS TO MY LIFE.
I JUST REALIZED I CAN USE MY OLD NYLON B-SUIT WITH BRA SEPARATE. I DON'T HAVE TO SEW IT IN.
I LOVE FREE THINKING.
I JUST REALIZED I CAN USE MY OLD NYLON B-SUIT WITH BRA SEPARATE. I DON'T HAVE TO SEW IT IN.
I LOVE FREE THINKING.
Thursday, July 27, 2017
LOVIN' IT
IT ONLY TOOK SINCE AUG 31, 2012. I'VE LEARNED TO LOVE MY LIFE.
I LOVED LIFE IN GENERAL. THE ANIMALS, PLANTS, PEOPLE. BUT MY LIFE IS IMPROVING. BECAUSE WE'RE HUMAN THE STAKES ALWAYS INCREASE AND THAT WHICH MAKES ONE HAPPY TODAY WILL NOT SUFFICE FOREVER. THE HUMAN CONDITION. THE REASON WE NO LONGER RESIDE IN CAVES OR TREES.
I'VE COME TO TERMS WITH SOUNDS, SMELLS, LIGHTS SOMETIMES STARTLING ME.
MY OBSESSIVE/COMPULSIVE IS BETTER. GOD IS GENTLY RE-TRAINING ME.
I LOVED LIFE IN GENERAL. THE ANIMALS, PLANTS, PEOPLE. BUT MY LIFE IS IMPROVING. BECAUSE WE'RE HUMAN THE STAKES ALWAYS INCREASE AND THAT WHICH MAKES ONE HAPPY TODAY WILL NOT SUFFICE FOREVER. THE HUMAN CONDITION. THE REASON WE NO LONGER RESIDE IN CAVES OR TREES.
I'VE COME TO TERMS WITH SOUNDS, SMELLS, LIGHTS SOMETIMES STARTLING ME.
MY OBSESSIVE/COMPULSIVE IS BETTER. GOD IS GENTLY RE-TRAINING ME.
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