Found it on season two, 2000. I thought it was earlier than that. Seems like discovering my quirk is normal for aspies, taking the online test, happened a long time ago. Maybe the time distortion is due to seeing it reappear so many times.
God is patient. If I don't tune in on the message He keeps replaying it until I put it together. Like the documentary on PBS on Temple Grandin playing over and over maybe 30 times until I watched it. Only because there was nothing else to watch that night.
I couldn't remember her name at first. I knew it started with t and meant palace and her last name was something like Grenville. So I had to watch it over and over. At first I couldn't believe it. Then I became fascinated. How enlightened and loving her mother must have been. It couldn't have been easy for her.
I'm fascinated with how the brain works. How when putting together jigsaw puzzles the brain assesses and remembers where pieces go. SO MUCH OF LIFE IS DONE UNCONSCIOUSLY THROUGH PROGRAMMING. DRIVING A CAR, BRUSHING TEETH, FINDING A SOLUTION.
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
COULD BE ASPERGERS' ANXIETY=SELF SABOTAGE
Life has been going brilliantly this week.
Sunday found 4 dimes, 2 nickels on top of payphone, dime, nickel, 4 cents in parking lot, bot.
Then went St Justin thrift, ring$1, Disney shirt $1.50, lunch Chinese chick salad, rolls.
Been finding lots of recycle.
Feeling blessed and anxious that it's too good to be true.
Self-sabotage: so the gods don't punish good fortune. Punish oneself before the gods do it? Well, that's just wrong.
WOW!!!!
Sunday found 4 dimes, 2 nickels on top of payphone, dime, nickel, 4 cents in parking lot, bot.
Then went St Justin thrift, ring$1, Disney shirt $1.50, lunch Chinese chick salad, rolls.
Been finding lots of recycle.
Feeling blessed and anxious that it's too good to be true.
Self-sabotage: so the gods don't punish good fortune. Punish oneself before the gods do it? Well, that's just wrong.
WOW!!!!
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Typical Behavior of Humanimals
Humanimals are hierarchal in their behavior like life in the caves. There must be a leader and subordinates. Cooperation is a higher order function.
Kids naturally revert to hierarchal bullying in their undeveloped, underdeveloped stage. Some individuals never need to evolve (are never forced to) and don't. Some people have an innate need to improve and self actualize.
Aspies can't understand that we are all different. It isn't a concept they can easily rewire into their brains.
It's taken me 63 years. I did it!!!
Most humanimals use tricks learned in childhood to manipulate the world around them. They continue the same behaviors until the tricks don't get them what they want. Some continue the same old behaviors=insanity.
Anger and Violence are traditional upgrades when the previous behavior doesn't get them what they want.
How to get what you want and need starts from birth. An infant has to learn how to get food and attention. Crying, smiling, affection, are all learned to be used.
That's why people like me. I do no harm.
Humanimals when thwarted strike out in revenge and retaliation, wasting more energy on a losing situation.
Why wars are never won.
Kids naturally revert to hierarchal bullying in their undeveloped, underdeveloped stage. Some individuals never need to evolve (are never forced to) and don't. Some people have an innate need to improve and self actualize.
Aspies can't understand that we are all different. It isn't a concept they can easily rewire into their brains.
It's taken me 63 years. I did it!!!
Most humanimals use tricks learned in childhood to manipulate the world around them. They continue the same behaviors until the tricks don't get them what they want. Some continue the same old behaviors=insanity.
Anger and Violence are traditional upgrades when the previous behavior doesn't get them what they want.
How to get what you want and need starts from birth. An infant has to learn how to get food and attention. Crying, smiling, affection, are all learned to be used.
That's why people like me. I do no harm.
Humanimals when thwarted strike out in revenge and retaliation, wasting more energy on a losing situation.
Why wars are never won.
Saturday, August 9, 2014
aspergers nation-Northside library Opening And I am here
The combination of toxins, stressed parents producing higher levels of adrenaline and cortisol, simple population dynamics is increasing the absolute numbers of individuals presenting aspergers symptoms.
How we mainstream the individuals will determine the success of these United States of Aspergers.
I find it amusing that the spell check doesn't recognize the word aspergers. Wonder how long it will take to make aspergers main stream.
How we mainstream the individuals will determine the success of these United States of Aspergers.
I find it amusing that the spell check doesn't recognize the word aspergers. Wonder how long it will take to make aspergers main stream.
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
forgetting and remembering
Those two words.
Forgetting. To get the future one leaves the past in the past. For getting leave the past behind. In the rear view mirror it becomes reversed. Mirror image.
Remembering. Reconnecting. Putting the pieces together, hopefully in a new, better configuration.
Fear is an active component of Aspergers Syndrome. Anxiety, whatever you call it the emotion feels the same. I wondered as a child whether other people saw blue the same way I did or did we just agree to call our separate shades blue. Like colorblind people see shades of gray and have to believe there is differentiation between the shades of gray.
So much of living is based on Faith.
I believe Aspergers feel more acutely like elephants feel emotions clearer, cleaner. The societal need to respect and acknowledge the balance between emotion and intellect.
There is no success. No enjoyment without it.
Three people this morning were in a rush driving to wherever. Not enjoying the journey and I used to be one of them.
Today the new me watched a squirrel traversing the building ledge.
Fear and Anxiety can be tamed. With or without substances.
The fear of Being a new form feels like dying. I don't have to die to be reborn. Only my old life.
Forgetting. To get the future one leaves the past in the past. For getting leave the past behind. In the rear view mirror it becomes reversed. Mirror image.
Remembering. Reconnecting. Putting the pieces together, hopefully in a new, better configuration.
Fear is an active component of Aspergers Syndrome. Anxiety, whatever you call it the emotion feels the same. I wondered as a child whether other people saw blue the same way I did or did we just agree to call our separate shades blue. Like colorblind people see shades of gray and have to believe there is differentiation between the shades of gray.
So much of living is based on Faith.
I believe Aspergers feel more acutely like elephants feel emotions clearer, cleaner. The societal need to respect and acknowledge the balance between emotion and intellect.
There is no success. No enjoyment without it.
Three people this morning were in a rush driving to wherever. Not enjoying the journey and I used to be one of them.
Today the new me watched a squirrel traversing the building ledge.
Fear and Anxiety can be tamed. With or without substances.
The fear of Being a new form feels like dying. I don't have to die to be reborn. Only my old life.
Sunday, July 27, 2014
Another pc of the puzzle-Sunday free senior lunch -St Justin
Sitting not winning, I had a lot of time to meditate.
The fascination with winning, playing, competing, general jerk-like behavior can be explained by the need to feel adrenaline and stress.
It also explains celebrity. People not using their brains see winners as different from themselves.
Only their thinking, their thoughts, makes them different.
They're different through their choices.
The fascination with winning, playing, competing, general jerk-like behavior can be explained by the need to feel adrenaline and stress.
It also explains celebrity. People not using their brains see winners as different from themselves.
Only their thinking, their thoughts, makes them different.
They're different through their choices.
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Greater Stress-Greater Need for Solutions=Aspergers
The greater the feelings of stress and anxiety caused by physical or emotional threats the greater the need for solutions. The increase in stress hormones triggers the next generation to be more anxious and aware of searching for solutions to relieve the stress.
The manner in which cattle have been slaughtered, increasing the stress hormones, the children ingesting higher levels of hormones and physically resulting in obesity and more stress over the unhealthy physiology.
It isn't the fast food that makes us fat. It's using cheap hormone overloaded beef, chicken whatever.
Aspergers is the result of stress. Programming a generation to search for stress Reduction.
The manner in which cattle have been slaughtered, increasing the stress hormones, the children ingesting higher levels of hormones and physically resulting in obesity and more stress over the unhealthy physiology.
It isn't the fast food that makes us fat. It's using cheap hormone overloaded beef, chicken whatever.
Aspergers is the result of stress. Programming a generation to search for stress Reduction.
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