Friday, September 14, 2012

IF ONLY---Did I choose this??

 It occured to me this a.m. that according to E. Cayce this life may be my one in seven.  The difficult    work lifetime. 

 That this life may be difficult because I set it up this way.   Even writing this blog, it's doing weird things.  And so it goes.  

 I'm experimenting with getting the background stable and I have know idea how I did it but it's blipping up and down.  

 I was watching a crime show.  Don't remember what but the writer on her blog hid messages by writing white on white.  Interesting concept.  Also, I read in the news that relatives of dead people are trying to have evidence of the deceased removed from the internet.  Why??   

Human (animal?) behavior confuses me.  How much of peoplekind is animal and how much divine and how to tell.

 Since aspergers is a brain mutation I believe it's an evolutionary step in solving the animal problems of greed, violence towards others, cruelty of all kinds. 

Aspergers people have an unusual level and manifestation of empathy for all living beings.  Temple Grandin being a clear example. 

 Her work has created safer beef products by eliminating the cruelty of slaughter and the toxins created and ingested by fear permeated meat. 

Playing with all the doodads at the top of this page.  Guess I'm done for now.           

Ooh, yes.  I forgot to change my yard boots and wore them to the Sr. Ctr.  so I'm wearing my shower sandals today.  Another lesson in forgiving myself.  My mom and A would have crucified me and never let me live it down.  No peace for Susan in their world.      

And I suppose they knew that.                                                                                                           

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Verdana Font-Closer to my heaven

Talking to em and m about my theory of evolution/devolution the savages/de-evolved are afraid of the pack finding them out.  That's where and why the viciousness. 

Thank you God that it's 2012 or human behavior would still warrent assasination.   

I'm so glad I can paint my words.  It's soo much more fun.  And I'm hungry and time to eat snack.

Monday, April 16, 2012

Spirit-Intuition-God-Chi

Feelings are our connection to Spirit. 

If we practice we get good at it.  Whatever it is. 

I had to listen to energy well to avoid the worst of the insanity at home.  So my sense of intuition became developed beyond my comfort zone.  And then I learned the reason for my discomfort.  I never believed in reincarnation.  The idea conflicted with my idea of an intelligent God.  Why would God keep putting us in the third grade?

Then because of a psychosomatic reaction to filling out divorce papers I sought the help of a Dr. Eidelshink at Kaiser Hayward.  My first experience with hypnosis.  We focused on the reasons behind the physical reaction.  And he taught me self-hypnosis, deep relaxation focusing on the underlying cause of my physical resistance to a divorce I desperately wanted.  That weekend was an Association for Research and Enlightenment (Edgar Cayce) seminar at the Oakland airport hotel.  A induced me to babysit her and true to form dumped me as soon as she hooked up.  So although I didn't believe it existed I went to the session.  The induction was protected by the caveat no unpleasant experience would occur.  So I went to "sleep".

I listened to people's deluded tales and was refreshed from my 20 minute "nap".  As always A was late and so she rushed me home and rushed on her way.  True to form she called me next morning (Sunday) and prattled on about her experience.  While she was talking I saw superimposed over my vision 3 cels.  The people and clothing were all too familiar.  I knew it was a past life in Victorian times and that my miserable marriage was karmic balance.  Once Pandora's box was opened I became aware of many ties and understood puzzling situations.

I came to accept that God allowed us to create and perpetuate reincarnation as a get out of jail card. 

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Depression-Repression

A chemical state caused by emotions.  Emotions are feelings encapsulated in the body.  Emotion is blocked energy.  It takes energy to contain energy.  No wonder it's tiring. 

Repressed emotions are past experiences unsafe to explore at the time.  So depression gives us an opportunity to reexamine the experience and expunge, erase it from the system.  Memories are chemical tracks laid down to aid us in survival.  Optimum success from avoiding known failures or threats. 

To reprogram those chemical tracks takes a lot of either repetition or the infusion of a lot of energy.  Traumatic experiences are the hardest to expunge because of the energy-strength of the induction. 

Like the Law of Physics an equal and opposite force is required to change the direction and momentum of a memory. 

A recurring memory, obsessive memory is fading and the survival mechanism in our minds sets off a signal to retain or abort.  Memories are never simply forgotten.  Drugs or a physical injury may change or delete a memory.  When the  memory is too painful or unacceptable to the psyche the repressed memory is unconscious.  It has become second nature.  Natural to the person.  Safety and comfort are necessary to safely, comfortably examine and assess the memory.  Keep, store, or throw away.  Just like spring cleaning.

I will consciously choose to keep or reprogram my thoughts.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

UNIFIED FIELD THEORY

Imagine a point as an electron.

Extend the point and you have an electric current.

Extend the current and you have a magnetic field.

Rotate the field and you have gravity.

MY THEORY ON THE CYCLE OF LIFE-GEOMETRICALLY

I used to think life was a sine wave with peaks and valleys travelling along the x-axis.  What I've come to accept is that the sine wave is on a 45 degree angle.  Also, life can be viewed as a spiral.  Sometimes when lessons seem to be repeated you're one level higher on the spiral and it just looks like you're in the same place.

A sine wave can be described by the point on a circle travelling along the x-axis with the center point of the circle having a constant y-value.   The farther out from the center (y-constant) the greater the amplitude of the sine wave.  I think of God as the center of the circle and the farther away from God-center the more chaotic the ride. The higher the highs, especially on the 45 degree incline.


Monday, February 27, 2012

MY THEORY ON D/EVOLUTION AND GREED

Yes, it's about time I wrote this down.  About time.  Ha, ha.  OK.    I never had a problem resolving creation and evolution.  If God is all powerful and created the Universe, God created evolution.  If God is eternal, millions, billions of years equal one day when compared to eternity.  How is God to describe to the prophets a million or a billion when most people are illiterate and mathematics in its infancy. 

When looking at the embryonic development of all animals the first stages all look the same.  Only later the DNA causes the embryos to develop and differentiate.  My theory is that some people are stuck in the reptile or avian stage of development.  Abuse and neglect are probable causes for d/evolution.  Abuse and neglect force the baby or adult to lock into survival mode and unless there is an intervention strong enough to break the lock the adult never feels higher feelings of charity, empathy, sympathy. 

The lower order needs are the only hierarchal needs recognized by the stunted adults.  Maslow's hierarchy of needs doesn't exist for reptilian thinking people because they are incapable of higher order thinking and feeling.  No amount of talking or action can prove to someone outside the human range of feelings the importance of humanity for the survival of the species.

The greed of the Bernie Maddoff's of the world destroys people's hopes and dreams thereby spiritually and psychologically killing people.  Because the victims still walk around economically ruined, the soul/mind killers are put in "jail" and fined.  They are worse than Hitler or any of the rapacious tyrants of the world.  All crimes against humanity are an act of war and terrorism against mankind's evolution.

The unseen wounds are the hardest to heal.  Post traumatic stress is rampant in the world.  Because historically every age has a different trauma the concensus is every stress is different.  The pain and healing are the same.  Emotional pain is the same as the amputee's phantom pain of loss of limb.  It's energy blocked and unnatural, not belonging. 

Healing is a totally individual experience.  Each unique and miraculous healing is called forth by asking.  And each and every healing comes directly from the life energy that created us all.