RAT BRAIN RACE

LILY TOMLIN OBSERVED THE ONLY PROBLEM WITH WINNING THE RAT RACE IS YOU'RE STILL A RAT.


PSYCHOLOGY TODAY RAN A STORY ON AN EXPERIMENT WHERE THEY HOOKED A RAT TO ELECTRODES AND GAVE IT A CHOICE WITH BUTTONS FOR FOOD OR SEX.  THE RAT DIED OF STARVATION.  IT PLEASURED ITSELF TO DEATH. 


THE OBSESSION WITH SEX IS THE RAT BRAIN.

THE ODD WAY HOME-DVD

WHAT A SURPRISE!!


I PICKED UP THE DVD BECAUSE IT STARS RUMER WILLIS, THE DAUGHTER OF DEMI MOORE AND BRUCE WILLIS. 


IT'S ABOUT AN ASPY MAN AND THE TROUBLED, ABUSED YOUNG WOMAN WHO FINDS HIM WITH HIS 82 YR OLD DEAD GRANDMA. 


WHEW!!


HEAVY FOR FIRST THING IN THE AM.  4:30 AM.


I CAN RELATE.  MOM SAID I HAD NO FEELINGS.  I'VE ALWAYS HAD FEELINGS AND SHOWED THEM IN A DIFFERENT WAY.  SHE'S A GITCH.  A GIANT BITCH. 


I'M GLAD THERE ARE MORE MOVIES DEPICTING ASPY'S WITH RESPECT AND UNDERSTANDING. 

WHAT TO DO

I THOUGHT OF WORKING WITH ASPY'S BUT I THINK I COULD DO MORE WITH HELPING RETRAIN MUSCLES LIKE I'M DOING WITH MINE.


I WEEDED 2 1/2 HRS THURSDAY AND I'M DOING ALRIGHT TODAY.  I'VE BEEN BABYING MY BACK.  WELL, MY ENTIRE BODY AND MIND.  A WAIT AND SEE ATTITUDE.  A TAKE IT SLOWLY AND THINK THINGS THROUGH. 


SO FAR, SO GOOD.  A LITTLE DISCOMFORT NOW.  BUT WAY BETTER THAN LAST NIGHT.  I TOOK ONE WHITE WILLOW AT 11PM AND ANOTHER AT 4AM AND MANAGED TO GO BACK TO SLEEP UNTIL 5:55.  I WAS HUNGRY SO I MADE MY OATMEAL AND RESTED.  LOTS OF REST TO BALANCE THROWING OUT MY BACK. 


I FOUND A VMAIL FROM T AND HE SOUNDED DRUNK.  OH, WELL.  CALLED HIM AND HE'S PLAYING IN SF TONITE, I DON'T THINK HE'S HAPPY.


HE PLANTED ONE RED LILAC TREE FOR ME.  KIND OF AN OXYMORON.  A RED LILAC. 

TOO RELAXED

I WALKED AWAY FROM MY PURSE HANGING ON A CHAIR.  I WENT TO THE BATHROOM AND REMEMBERED. 


WHEW!!  IT WAS STILL THERE.  GOING UNCONSCIOUS.  THAT'S WHEN I MISPLACE
THINGS. 


I USED TO WONDER IF IT WAS SELF-SABOTAGE.  NOW I KNOW I'M NOT USED TO FUNCTIONING RELAXED OR HAPPY.  I DROP MY DEFENSES.  UNTIL THE WORLD CATCHES UP I NEED THOSE DEFENSES.


I RESENT HAVING TO LOCK ANYTHING UP SO I MISPLACE OR LOSE MY KEYS. 

GOLDEN RULE

THE NATURAL ENERGY LINK AUTISM PROVIDES CREATES INNATE COMPASSION.  WHAT I DO TO OTHERS COMES BACK TO ME. 


THAT'S WHAT MAKES IT EVOLUTIONARY.


A NATURAL QUALITY.  EVERYONE HAS IT.  OR DO THEY?


THROWBACKS WOULDN'T.


 I GAVE AUDRIEANN THE WOOLY HAT AND GLOVES YESTERDAY.  SHE'S BEEN GONE FOR A MONTH.  SHE STAYED WITH HER MOM FOR HER BIRTHDAY.  SHE WAS DELIGHTED.

ASPERGERS=PTSD

BECAUSE OF THE PECULIAR BRAIN FUNCTIONING EVERYTHING IS AN ASSAULT ON THE SENSES.  PERPETUAL  CHAOS.  THE TEEN BRAIN IS DEVELOPED ENOUGH TO RECOGNIZE AND SPECIFICALLY FILTER OUT WHAT'S IMPORTANT.

I'M HYPERSENSITIVE TO CONNECTING WITH OTHERS.  IT'S PAIN FILLED.

I BELIEVE BECAUSE THE ENERGY CONNECTION IS USUALLY DISCORDANT.  TWO DIFFERENT WAVE PATTERNS.

MATCHING UP TWO ENERGY SOURCES, TRYING TO SYNCHRONIZE THEM TO FORM A VALID, COMFORTABLE CHANNEL.

WHEN CHRIST SAID TWO OR MORE.

PUBLIC SPEAKING, PERFORMANCES ARE A WAVE OF ENERGY THAT CANCEL OUT SPECIFIC FREQUENCIES LIKE WHITE NOISE OR SUNLIGHT.