Thursday, February 16, 2017

TILT=ASPERGERS ANXIETY-NO FILTERS


trying to describe my experience to little girls from scu.

I THINK KIDS SHUT DOWN DUE TO LACK OF FILTERS.

IT EXPLAINS THE AGE LAG.  WHEN KIDS ARE STARTING TO UNDERSTAND THE WORLD MORE AT2-3-4 YEARS, IT IS JUST TOO MUCH INPUT.  TILT

MY RETICENCE IN INTERACTING WITH THE WORLD WAS BEAT OUT OF ME.  I WAS FORCED TO TALK OR I'D STARVE.  MOM REFUSED TO PUT UP WITH MY "NONSENSE".  I WONDER IF THAT'S WHY AUNTY KATCHAN WANTED TO ADOPT ME.  TO SAVE ME.

AND I THINK I HAD ENOUGH LOVING PEOPLE UNTIL AGE FOUR TO BALANCE THE TERROR.

I'M REALIZING MORE, HOW MUCH I TUNE INTO THAT OTHER PEOPLE MISS.

THOSE FILTERS CAN KEEP OUT THE GOOD TOO.

IN ORDER TO FIND MY PLACE AND PURPOSE I MUST READJUST AND ADAPT THE FILTERS I HAVE.

BEAR KAUFFMAN-SONRISE-RAUN

this came back to me while talking with the little girls from scu.


PHIL AND CLYDE-SCORPIO TWINS.  CLYDE WAS THE STAGE MANAGER AT FLINT CENTER.

CLYDE BURTON DISCOVERED BARRY KAUFFMAN ANDTHE OPTION INSTITUTE IN MAINE(?) AND WANTED TO GO SO I GAVE HIM PERMISSION TO MAX OUT HIS CREDIT CARDS AND GO TO A RETREAT.

I INVESTIGATED BEAR AND READ ALL THE BOOKS HE'D WRITTEN AND MOVIES HE MADE BEFORE OK'ING THE ADVENTURE.

HIS AUTISTIC SON, RAUN I READ ABOUT IN 1985?

WHO KNEW THEN I WAS AUTISTIC?  NOT ME!!

 MOM ALWAYS INSISTED I WAS RETARDED OR INSANE.  WHAT DOES THAT TELL YOU ABOUT HER.  PROJECTIONS.

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

BEHAVE-BE-HAVE


OUR LIVES ARE A SERIES OF BEHAVIORS.  IN ORDER TO HAVE, BE.  BE THE BEST AND HAVE THE BEST. 

ALL DETERMINED BY WHAT YOUR HEART WANTS.  EMOTIONS ARE ENERGY IN MOTION.

THOUGHT ENERGY IS TRANSCENDENT AS IS MAGNETISM.  THE EARTH HAS MASS BECAUSE OF TINY ELECTRONS CIRCLING NEUTRONS... WHICH LEAKS AN INFINITESIMAL FRACTION OF ENERGY CREATING MAGNETISM/GRAVITY. 

WHICH IS WHY PSYCHO-CRAZY LIARS CAN HAVE RICHES.

ENERGY MAKES NO DISTINCTIONS.  IT'S NEUTRAL.  THE ELECTRONS THAT LIGHT THE LAMP ARE THE SAME AS GAS IN A CAR OR  FUEL IN THE BODY.

WHICH IS WHY UNPLEASANT PEOPLE DO ALRIGHT.  GOD/ENERGY DOESN'T JUDGE OR DIFFERENTIATE.  IT JUST CREATES.